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coming into conclusion, he said “let’s just date”. as shocking it was, I bit my lip, and held back...

Sat, 25 May 2013 14:25:40 -0700

coming into conclusion, he said “let’s just date”. as shocking it was, I bit my lip, and held back the tears that wanted to fall. I spilled my heart out, threw my heart out in the battlefield, only to get trampled on and feeling nothing but dirt. I asked him “how do you propose we do on that? how do we date?” He said “you can call me, and whenever you have time we can go to the movies, have dinner, or you can call me and ask to come over to my house”. excuse my language, but what the fuck is up with that? kind of harsh isn’t it? when I told him, exactly how I felt, I’ve been sulking since he dumped me, I have been crying myself to sleep, thinking about him every second of the day. I made myself feel so miserable. I told him I missed him so much, that I don’t want anyone else but him, I don’t want to move on, and I want to be his girlfriend again. I was dumped on the week of finals, now I’m going to fail, because I can’t even concentrate on my studies, because I just feel so crummy. he consumes every space in my mind. and it’s not fair for me to suffer, and be unhappy, because he has trust issues with me.

i miss you, i really do. need you? yes i do, you make it easier to go on through my day, you make me look forward to my tomorrows. you give me passion into the things i do, my mind is more creative with you there. do i want you? heck yes i do, every square inch of your body, i want. I want your mind, your soul, and your heart. be your girlfriend again? i can only dream of it.

I thought I can live with the fact that we can date again, but then I realized, when I threw my heart out there for you to take back, you just threw it right back at me, and told me you didn’t want it. You want to date me, but yet you didn’t give me any hope. when I came over to your house, I really just wanted to hold you, which I did. when I told you how miserable I felt, i really wanted you to tell me everything’s going to be okay, and that I shouldn’t worry, things will get better, and you’ll be here for me, and we won’t do silly things like this anymore and hurt each other. I just wanted you to wipe my tears, and tell me we’re going to be okay again. & I couldn’t even have that. All I got was “let’s just date”.

ouch, it was like a dart through the heart. my heart hurts so much, that I just want to put it to sleep. & wake me up when this nightmare is over, because I can’t bear this torture anymore. there’s only so much I would go through, if there’s no hope. i give up :( it’s not that i’m tired, believe me, I want to try, I want to do this. but I can’t stand crying another night for you, because its not fair to my heart, when it only hurts longing to be back in your arms..

who’s here to mend my heart while I’m mending yours?

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Sat, 25 May 2013 01:24:18 -0700

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"What do you say when the feelings don’t fit into words?"

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:30:44 -0700

“What do you say when the feelings don’t fit into words?”

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"Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you’re in trouble, because that..."

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:18:04 -0700

“Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you’re in trouble, because that reason can be taken from you.”

- Deepak Chopra (via onlinecounsellingcollege)